ok i dont think u didnt received my msg last night
but if u really want to say so
ok i accept it but i guess u had already read about it
but u just dont want to admit
is okie
i wont force u to admit it
it’s fine for me either =(
adn please dont try to explain so much
the more u explain the more i feel myself stupid
i know u might be lying
but what i can do is just act like i believes
actually i got lots of words to tell, to ask
but still end up i swollow all back into my stomach before it comes out from my hand * typing- msn chatting *
i guess i’ve already know what is in ur mind dii
i think no matter how hard is it
i need to try more harder to be strong
please dont simply drop down any tears in front of others
vivian tan shouldnt be so weak and fragile
haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh………………….
what’s wrong ler ?
i dont know what is going on right now
i am so sorry
i had already apologies so many times
i didnt mean to say I DONT CARE
i didnt plan to tell u all the bullshit
but…
is this what u plan to treat me?
if is yes, fine then
i am so tired, so so tired
not even a hi
not even a call
not even a smile when u look at me
not even…….argh i dont know
i hate the way u ignored me
i feel so….
please tell me what u want?
dont just ignore without any reason, i feel hurt
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FamousC, ignore the silly, stupid things that happens to me
last night was actually very fun ler
no worries
i am serious! =)
and thnx alot, alot, alot….
i didnt know i couldnt control
but i should have control ler haih
anyway thnx for inviting us there , serious
at least that’s much more better than i stayed home and cry alone =(
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learned something new last night from J
” do u know why u feel tired? because u kept running on my mind. “
hahahaha
i actually like this
so sweet =P
thnx J for teaching me this hahaha
Actually i really dont know what kind of post i should blog on for the post that i promised but what i have in my mind since last night until now i am gonna blog it here.
This time is for real, i dont want to be silly anymore, no more! It’s already half a year and it still……same. I guess all this while I am too committed, OVER!! Mood swing easily because of him and now i want it to stop right at this moment. I shouldn’t treat myself like that. It has been a few times dii, whenever i really feels like giving up Not to “like” anymore and yet U tend to drag me back to the situation again sigh…what should i do seriously tell me what u actually want?? I dont even feel like I am any important for u at all, dont even feels like you care about me at all, I bet u know how i feel and what I feel all this while is just that ur acting like u dont know, I am just a normal admirer for u i suppose.
hmmm….i really dont understand why I couldnt let go. When she told me “Hey vivian just now U and Him msg me but i rplied u but not him, hahaha” maybe she dont know anything but deep in me I was feeling so sad actually he was there but he msg her but not me. I guess it has been proven, this time must be for real and i have to : let go! just let it be! take him back to the normal friend status like others, dont ever put in any hope anymore, please dont!!
I just dont know why I feels like crying, i really dont know why my tears feels like droping =( I need to be tough and i am tough!
goodbye~ hopefully this shall be the last post of him.
I can close your eyes to things I don’t want to see, but I can’t close my heart to things i don’t want to feel.
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When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.
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I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day
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It felt like my hearts being torn into pieces wen i saw u toking to her just in front of my very eyes.. & u were acting as if u dont noe that i hav feelings for u..
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Why yOU? why did i fall so hard for you why am i go insane why cant i just move on i love you & i dont know what to do
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It’s either you like me or not? Stop messing with my head
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Why don’t you stop acting like an idiot for just one second and let me show you my love and make you feel that way too?
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I cant stop my heart from feeling what it feels…but what i dont understand is why it wants to break all the time!
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I must be doing something totally wrong because they always leave me feeling AbSoLuTeLy bRoKeN
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Why The Hell Did i Try So Hard?.
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I sink into the lyrics with a sigh.The music, at least for a little while,fills a sweet sort of ache.When one song is done, another takes its place.An endless stream of comfortand distraction to help me for a while.
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Im in love with him and i dont think he understands that what he does and says can ruin my day and the way i smile,i know i shouldnt take it all in but i just cant say its over..its harder than you think
Whenever i heard this song it reminds me of you
it’s playing right now
and it makes me S.S.I.M again =(
Vivian Tan has been rocking the world with Chris Chee since 15th September 2008. Rock ON!!
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